BLISSOLOGY, VIBRATING, ECSTASY, CRYING,

STREAMING ENERGY & INFINITY

Why does energy flowing thru our body feel more loving pleasure bliss now when still than moving around? Being receptive to inner?!

I began feeling waves of bliss in ‘67 with cosmic music: Beatles Sgt. Pepper, The Doors, Hendrix, Joplin, Jefferson Airplane, Edwin Hawkins singers, Moody Blues, The Byrds, CSN & Y, Isley Bros. Stones, Cream, Love, Steve Miller, & more. Doesn’t anyone? don’t you feel it now? I wondered. It sounded like angels, free- spirits, cosmic love, trance mysteries with: power-cords of magic vibes, bridges of ecstasy, deep joy, astral travel OOBE & spirit-guides calling me into Nature & divine destiny of what I don’t know is coming beyond here now melting into consciousness of all.

Is it infinity, eternity, perfect love, all pervading matrix of space, Fuller calls ‘all-space-filling grid’ of universe, evolving nature of Gods designs everywhere. My path of discovering natural patterns of energy began with feeling bliss with music more than sex in late 60s, before my Saturn return in ‘70s. Seeing energy patterns came after the bliss feelings of learning truth about world, nature & spirit of love now. I had geodesic vision of all energy vibrating thru cosmic grid of interlocking tetrahedron Fuller calls ‘octetruss’ of space. His Synergetic cosmic geometry is vastly beyond the geoedesic dome shelters he designed & built. ‘30s -‘80s..

I learned to meditate with candle I spring of ’69 with Jack Schwartz a psychic yogi teacher of mystical arts in Portland. It deepened my focus, was very specialized in $cientease babbles of vague useless speculations about origin & age of earth & Universe, ignoring natural energy geometry everywhere. Later centering in Bliss listening to music & meditating gave me more wonder & love of nature. But my unconscious had many secret witheld emotions needing healing old hurts, unmet needs & fears, before finding love is free if we surrender to it. Beliefs, plans & ego melted within trance with fears of unknown growing. Nature appears with infinite changing possibilities of energy waves. My wife, with our 2 boys, didn’t feel energy flowing, so we lost love, wanting different ways.

I first saw dancing sunlite waves reflecting on ocean in trance spontaneously in fall ’69. Then ‘sensing the void’ of no-space in dark forest at nite, when it all disappeared in trance & reappeared instantly if I moved or thot. Later I’d felt bliss tingling while reading, hearing truth & music, in sunshine or after crying. Taking LSD in winter of ’71 feeling present energy & squits of ecstasy, better than orgasm. Then recalling my childhood pains & punishment, dreams & emotions after decades of repressing & forgetting them. In spring I discovered spiraling patterns in 4-D space in the woods on LSD. I began doing yoga at home alone learned easily with PBS yoga class. In mid July (Cancer) Later strong bliss came with ‘pranayama’ breathing in car near St. Louis, MO during the World (energy) Game at Bucky Fuller’s Design Dept at SIU.

Fuller & other liberation radicals, therapy & yogis ignored the streaming energy of bliss I feel in my body centers, heart & limbs. Wilhelm Reich (’94-’57) said its flowing “orgone cosmic energy & orgiastic potency” in all living creatures, we feel when relaxed, open & naturally balancing ones body-mind. His ‘orgonomy’ therapy was used in ‘Bioenergetics’ of Alex Lowen, that mutated into dozens of emotional releasing bodyworks like: Polarity therapy, Zen Shiatzu, Primal scream, Rajneesh meditations. Postural integration, Rebirthing with massage, etc.

What about infinity & eternity? They’re the most difficult, mysterious & illogical & vague concept/words in English science, religion & philosophy. There easy to say, in grandiose ways, but rare to realize how vast earth, nature & universe are beyond our rationalogic minds. “God” is a handier term with religions hyping their beliefs in how to believe & behave. Science beliefs in Big Bang origin & age of earth, universe & Saganisms of “billions & trillions” #s to dazzel the classy folks trusting science over God & Nature emotions & children. Deep bliss helps us trust the magic flow here now in moments changing attitudes, plans, beliefs & identity in love.

Most of my spiritual teachers have suffered with deep healing to realize the spiritual energy of universe, instant-karma & opening hearts to all.